rushed

I estimate that I have worked on my proposal about, oh, 40 hours in the last 5 days. I wanted to have an abbreviated proposal (20-25 pages), but it's turning into a traditional proposal, with the typical length of 60 pages. I have 50 pages at this point and I estimate I will have around 60 when I'm done. This is good, means less work later on as I am writing my dissertation. I'm also a bit stressed that this is still not done. I am really hoping to have a draft sent out to my advisors tomorrow. I'm cutting it off awfully close for this semester. Eek! I'm not going to think about that, just do my best and keep going. I literally cannot spend more time on this than I am currently doing, so I can't stress. Can't stress can't stress. Yesterday, my mom asked me what I was doing to celebrate my 30th birthday. Proposal, I replied. Finishing my proposal draft by tomorrow would be the best gift I could give myself.