Today, I will not run errands. I will not do work. I will be a bum, and watch some musicals, and lie around and eat breakfast foods. I will pet chub. I will kill time, I will dance. I will admire the breeze. I will be more present than I have ever been. I'm remembering now, now that I am slowing down, how important it is to be present. I'm remembering how lovely it is to just lose track of time with a friend on a sunny day.
I miss this. I need to make time for me. I lost track of that this semester. It was like the time period right before graduate school, everything got frazzled and crazy and I couldn't find a way out of it. By the time I decided what I was doing, it was too late to turn back and I had to go full-force every minute.
I hope to collect most of my data this summer. Next fall will be more hectic but I can't believe it will be as bad as this semester. The clinical work this semester pushed me over the edge. The research, writing, I loved it even when it made me insane.
But I don't want to reflect today. I have plenty of time to do that. Today, I am busy, busy doing nothing.
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